bull-headed? who-me?!!!

​There are days that I think God looks down at me, His elbows resting on His knees, His hand on His forehead, and His head shakes back and forth. Some days He probably lets out a sigh, other days I think He kind of chuckles saying “Care, Care, Care…..let’s go over this ONE more time – you REALLY don’t have to be so ‘stubborn’ (or bull-headed, living in Alaska?!). You make it so hard and you don’t have to! I promise! I have you!”
 
A close friend sent me this email today and gave me permission to share it. as I think it illustrates exactly what I am trying to say in the previous paragraph…..He wrote: 
 
“God has clearly called both of us to reflect His light. Sometimes we are too weak, or pain-filled, or exhausted, or selfish, or disappointed, or distracted. Sometimes our own agenda or the agenda of those around us pulls us in an opposite direction. 
 
I picture it like I’m on this surfboard with God, clearly in the lull of the trough between the waves. I look over at Father-Son-Spirit to find them… patient. Smiling at me. Content to sit on the board with me while I regain my bearings. “It’s cool, son. We’re right here too.”
 
And slowly, but eventually, I recall that they have pulled me up on this fine board. Had they not, I’d be drowned by now, for sure. And I also remember that their idea is not to safely stay afloat, but to ride that huge next set of waves that are approaching quickly behind us.
 
They know I can’t surf. Turns out, that doesn’t matter. They can. I get to ride, and see, and feel and learn and hear and experience… the abundant life… eternal life. Joy. Peace. Love. Clarity. Understanding.
 
“Ready when you are, son.”
 
I can’t surf, either. But living here in Alaska, maybe for me, it’s a snow-board, as I wait to hang ten on  fresh, powder-white snow, that cover my screw-ups. Thanks for the analogy, Don. It fits. 
 
Bull-headed? Who? ME?!!!